I met this girl late last year
She said don’t you worry if I disappear
I told her I’m not really looking for another mistake
I called an old friend thinking that the trouble would wait
But then I jump right in
A week later returned
I reckon she was only looking for a lover to burn
But I gave her my time for two or three nights
Then I put it on pause ’til the moment was right
I went away for months until our paths crossed again
She told me I was never looking for a friend
Maybe you could swing by my room around 10
Baby bring a lemon and a bottle of gin
We’ll be in between the sheets ’til the late AM
Baby if you wanted me then you should’ve just said
She’s singing
Ah lahmlahlah

Don’t f*** with my love
That heart is so cold
All over my home
I don’t wanna know that babe
Ah lahmlahlah
Don’t f*** with my love
I told her she knows
Take aim and reload
I don’t wanna know that babe
Ah lahmlahlah

For a couple weeks I
Only want to see her
We drink away the days with a take-away pizza
Before a text message was the only way to reach her
Now she’s staying at my place and loves the way I treat her
Singing out Aretha
All over the track like a feature
And never wants to sleep, I guess that I don’t want to either
But me and her we make money the same way
Four cities, two planes the same day
Those shows have never been what it’s about
But maybe we’ll go together and just figure it out
I’d rather put on a film with you and sit on the couch
But we should get on a plane
Or we’ll be missing it now
Wish I’d have written it down
The way that things played out
When she was kissing him
How? I was confused about
She should figure it out while I’m sat here singing
Ah lahmlahlah

Don’t f*** with my love
That heart is so cold
All over my home
I don’t wanna know that babe
Ah lahmlahlah
Don’t f*** with my love
I told her she knows
Take aim and reload
I don’t wanna know that babe
Ah lahmlahlah

[Knock knock knock] on my hotel door
I don’t even know if she knows what for
She was crying on my shoulder
I already told ya
Trust and respect is what we do this for
I never intended to be next
But you didn’t need to take him to bed that’s all
And I never saw him as a threat
Until you disappeared with him to have sex of course
It’s not like we were both on tour
We were staying on the same f***ing hotel floor
And I wasn’t looking for a promise or commitment
But it was never just fun and I thought you were different
This is not the way you realize what you wanted
It’s a bit too much, too late if I’m honest
All this time God knows I’m singing
Ah lahmlahlah

Monday. I’m not sure how I feel about Monday’s anymore. Monday’s mean the weekend is over and I have another 5 days until the weekend. Which isn’t the worst thing- but the weekend provides more relaxation than the week does. This past weekend I was in Chicago to spend the weekend with my bestie and shop for bridesmaids dresses. It was actually a lot of fun and we agreed (at least I’m pretty sure) on the bridesmaids dresses for the wedding. Especially since both she and I have lost a bit of weight so it was more fun to try on dresses.

Anyway, let’s talk about this song and how much I love it. I heard it on the radio a few weeks ago and Saturday night in Chicago, Katie and I played this on repeat over and over again as we were driving. I mean, the lyrics are just so amazing. If you haven’t heard the song, go listen to it now – but pick the video that just has a green X- because the official video is weird. Anyway, I digress, Katie and I played this on repeat and we were both singing it the entire time.

Getting cheated on sucks. In case you hadn’t noticed, that’s what this song is about. Basically dude doesn’t want to date this girl, decides to date her, falls for her and then she breaks his heart. Ah, love. Also, story of my life. Especially the third verse. That’s my favorite and the one that hits home the most.  I mean, after three years I was looking for both a promise and commitment but he wasn’t. However, with my life being the movie that it is, he has now realized what he lost and it seems that he wants me back. Yep, he’s asked me on two dates in the last week. I told him that he was confusing me and asked what it was he was doing or wanted. To which he said he realized what he lost and other things about our relationship like the fact that he wishes we hadn’t moved in together so soon in to our relationship.

And the truth is, I think he makes a really great point. I moved in with him six months in to our relationship since I graduated college and needed a place to live and he was cool with me helping him pay the bills. It seemed like a win-win situation at the time. Which it was because we got to spend time together all the time and he was getting help with the bills and it was cheaper than anyplace else I was going to live but what ended up happening was that we didnt appreciate each other. By the end he didn’t appreciate that I did the dishes and cleaned and I didn’t appreciate the work he did around the house. Neither one of us apprecaited when the other one cooked for us and it just became a really vicious cycle.

Hindsight is 20/20 and we can only improve our future relationships by knowing that. Out of all of my relationships this one taught me the most about living with and loving someone. Long story short: relationships are hard work and don’t take anyone or anything for granted. They can disappear just as soon as they appeared.

chi_with_katieWith Katie in Chicago. We went to the City Winery in the West Loop. It was amazing (and pricey) but definitely worth the trip. I have no idea what I would do without this woman in my life.

I’ve learned that relationships with men will come and go but your best friends will always be there for you.