“People don’t write sonnets about being compatible. Or novels about shared life goals and stimulating conversation. The great loves are the crazy ones.”
-Blair form Gossip Girl
Happy Wednesday everyone!! Today has truly humbled me and showed me that there are great people in this world. I’m hoping to make a post about the start of this day later this week so that I can focus solely on this post and get it out at a reasonable time.
I had so much to say on this subject the other night but now when I’m sitting here in front of my computer nothing comes to mind. But here’s a start: I miss Gossip Girl. And Leighton Meester who plays Miss Blair Waldorf just got engaged to Adam Brody (aka Seth Cohen) so I had to use this quote in her honor!
Great love. Normal love. Shitty love. I think these are all things. I’ve had shitty love; at times it mirrors great love. The difference is that once it’s over you never look back. You never think about what could have happened if you stayed together. And after a year (at least in my case) I never even considered that relationship love at all. I’ll always remember the guy but I don’t count him as someone I ever loved. I will probably not speak of him again except for maybe in a conversation with a girl that I became close friends with as a result [read: Calla].
I’ve had normal love. It’s great at first and it’s fun til the end. It will always be special in my mind and there was never anything really wrong. We never stopped caring about each other but our lives were just going in different directions. To this day I can still talk to him and in a few hours we can be caught up on each others lives like we were never apart. This love taught me that time can heal all wounds; I was hurt when we broke up but about a year later we were talking and a year after that Katie and I went and visited him at college where we partied together and had a blast. Who knows if we had met for the first time today if we would have ended up dating but because it happened when it did he will always hold a special place in my heart.
I have also had great love. Great love is a whirlwind; it all happened so fast and it seems like it was just yesterday. My great love was probably not a healthy love but I don’t regret it at all. Most everything I do in my daily life is a result of this love. It is everlasting despite both of our attempts to get past it. We are in absolutely different places in our life and we will probably never survive as a result despite our shared dreams and goals. We were crazy about each other and often did unexplainable things that can only be justified by what I believe to be an enourmous amount of love. This love made me feel wonderful but it was also emotionally draining. I think great love does that. It’s just so amazing that it can only last for so long. When the movie Eat, Pray, Love came out back in the day I looked up a bunch of quotes by Elizabeth Gilbert and one of them was about soulmates.
“A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.”
And I have to believe that’s true. My great love is one that I made a movie about and will always remember. Elizabeth Gilbert was right though, it was far too painful to be in that relationship forever. It will always hold a special place in my heart.
xoxo