“What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try-will never be.”
Thanks for reading this. You know who you are. The title intrigued you. So let me give you some closure- or make you even more upset with me. You are a great person. I am a great person. We were not great together.
I can only imagine how betrayed you feel after everything that happened. I’m just another girl to add to your list of disappointments. I know this because you deleted me off Facebook pretty quickly. Did you have every reason to be suspicious? Probably. Did I like you? Of course. Did I have fun? Absolutely. Until it wasn’t anymore. When was that? Around the time you wanted to get serious. When everything had to be about you and us. When all the questions about where I was all the time started getting asked. When the fighting started.
You are a great person. I have flaws. I have lots of flaws. You have flaws too- flaws that I am in no position to comment on. But the reason I will never be the girl for you? Because you’re not the guy for me. And I’m sorry about that. Did I lead you on? Not at first. Did I by the end? Yes. Was it the right thing to do? No. Am I a coward? Probably. But if you wanted to know what the biggest deal breaker was? No, it wasn’t your past. It wasn’t that you didn’t have a job. It wasn’t that you smoked. It wasn’t anything to do with your family or friends. It was that you didn’t believe in my dreams. You didn’t believe that I could reach my goals. I want someone who encourages me to go after my dreams, or at the very least believes in them. I feel like if I had ended it then there wouldn’t be so many hard feelings. But I wanted to be believed in. I wanted someone who was going to help me be a better person.
I’m sorry. Truly and deeply from my entire heart; I’m sorry. Sorry that I hurt you and lead you on. Nothing I can say or do can undo the past. I hope in time you’ll be able to forgive me. But I can’t apologize for who I am. And I can’t compromise my dreams.
xoxo