I’m going to be real with you right now. If you’ve read any of my recent posts you’ll know that I’ve been making some big life changes. If not, go back and read them as I’ve actually been blogging recently.
My main area of focus, in terms of my own life, is to become a better person. In high school I used to love the drama. It made me feel important. Now the last thing I want in my life is drama. I stopped hanging out with a friend because all she did was break up and get back together with her boyfriend and complain about him and on and on and never listened to what any of her friends said about them. It got annoying and I couldn’t put up with the back and forth drama that it created in my life. The only people that I see now are the ones I have time for. Texting is for small talk- if you want to have a meaningful relationship with me- friendship or romantic, let’s get a few things straight: you need to be able to talk about more than work and more than your day. I had a recent fling with a guy and all he ever did was complain about work or want to talk about work. Like, I get it, you’re there 8 hours a day but you’re not there for double that time. Let’s talk about dreams, goals, cool things you want to try and so on. Shoot, you aren’t sure on any of that? Let’s talk about your past, do you have any cool vacation stories, how did you get that scar on your arm, you feel me? There is so much going on in life that if you are boring me then you literally no longer have a place in my life. #SorryNotSorry.
I can tell you lots of great things going on in my life- like my galcation with my bestie in August to the Dominican Republic. Also, today I got honored by one of the head honchos in my company (and I work for a publicly traded company) and it was amazing. I’ve got some crappy things too, like the fact that I live below the washer and dryer room in my apartment building and now my ceiling is leaking. All better things to talk about than small talk. You want to know how the weather is where I live? Google it.
In high school and college I needed to be validated by everyone else. I lived off it. If I got neglected I became literally depressed. Now, while I still care a little (hey, I’m only human) it doesn’t determine how I’m going to live my life. You don’t like what I post on instagram? Stop following me. You don’t like all the pictures of my dog on Facebook, cool, unfriend me. I’ve already deleted friends so one less is one less person I have to feel socially obligated to interact with at least once a year. Please don’t get me wrong, I love people, I’m absolutely a social butterfly, but people’s opinions of me are no longer forefront on my mind. Now I am to please two people: God and then myself. I pray every night to be a better person than I was the day before and to honor Him with my actions. I honestly believe I am a better person than I was a year ago. I will go above and beyond to help someone out – even if I don’t know you personally and if you want to be ungrateful and walk away from that, then that is totally on you.
This pin pretty much sums up my life right now. You may not understand or agree with my choices, that’s cool. I’m just asking that you respect them.
xoxo